Thursday, August 27, 2015

"Anything is possible - everything is negotiable."


One of the things that first struck me about my results was how wishy-washy they were. I knew I would score as an introvert - I could hardly be mistaken for anything else - but I did expect to score as more of an introvert. In the other three categories, scores of 19% to 6% leave me feeling like, well -  am I really an INTJ? Or am I just not anything else?

Reading the description of the INTJ personality, however, made me feel more confident in my results. INTJs build what Humanmetrics refers to as "specialized knowledge systems". I saw that phrase and it clicked, yep, that's me. One of my skills has always been information management. Whatever task I am assigned, whatever job I am working in, I greatly enjoy building systems to organize, connect, and manage information to make that information more useful to me and others.

Sometimes I have been self-conscious about my need to organize information, but this assessment makes me think that I should take advantage of it as a strength. My ability to process, connect, organize, and generally manipulate information should be a great strength to me in this class and throughout my academic career. 

The other phrase that really hit me in Humanmetrics' description of the INTJ personality was "Anything is possible - everything is negotiable." This is so seriously true of me that I cannot believe that I have not yet thought of it myself and adopted it as my life motto. Anything is possible and everything is negotiable; I would even take it a step farther and say anything is possible because everything is negotiable. Not in the strictest definition of "I'm going to negotiate my way from a C to an A in this class, a la Cher in Clueless", but I have a way of looking at the world around me, at problems that need solved (and I see 99% of the world as a problem that needs to be solved) as a set of criteria that I can either strictly meet to come up with a solution, or that I can arrange like a puzzle to find the most elegant solution. It is a difficult feeling to describe, but I have always enjoyed solving complex problems, real-life ones more so than games or puzzles, and negotiating my way around what other people might see as hard and fast obstacles is one of the greatest parts of that joy.

I see this as a strength, but it is also something I need to be especially aware of in an academic environment. There have been many times I have had to remind myself that rules and criteria are something I must respect, not manipulate, and I will need to continue to do so.

Some of the information about INTJ's learning styles also really resonated with me. INTJs tend to learn at a moderate pace because they spend a lot of time forming theoretical connections between different pieces of information, and that is me to a T. I absolutely cannot absorb information unless I can relate it in some way to something I already know. It is a time consuming thing, but once I have understood the subject at hand and made that connection, no further memorization or review is necessary, I've learned it, it's there for me to refer to whenever I need. Thus it also makes sense that INTJs learn best when teaching is systematic, as in a certification program... which reinforces my current plan to pursue a nursing degree, a very structured and systematic course of study!

Finally, I did some research on other websites about the INTJ personality, and I saw a common thread of INTJs being perceived as arrogant. That is definitely one of my faults and something I will have to be conscious of while working with other students in the class. I particularly saw myself in this passage from 16personalities:
Active teamwork is not ideal for people with the INTJ personality type. Fiercely independent and private, INTJs use their nimble minds and insight to deflect personal talk, avoid workplace tension, and create situations where they aren't slowed down by those less intelligent, less capable, or less adaptable to more efficient methods. Instead, they will likely poke fun by forcing them to read between the lines and making them deal alone with work that could have been easier if they'd only taken INTJs' suggestions.

INTJs are brilliant analysts, and will likely gather a small handful of trusted colleagues to involve in their brainstorming sessions, excluding those who get too hung up on details, or who otherwise have yet to earn their respect.
I have always preferred to work alone or with the very few people I saw as efficient, intelligent, and prepared to dig down into the meat of the matter at hand without getting distracted or introducing redundancies. In this class, as I work with other students and in my Writing Group, I will need to remember that my way of work is neither the only way of work nor the best way of work and strive to remain respectful and productive.

This test has given me a lot of insight into my personality, my ways of work, my relationships, and my strengths and weaknesses - frankly, a lot more insight than I expected! I'm working to learn more about the INTJ personality to see how knowing myself and my tendencies better can help me be more successful... and more efficient.